I’m feeling really bad – lots of strong suicidal thoughts. I left therapy, picked up some wine, and now I’m sitting at a bar drinking a vodka martini. I’m thinking I should organize my house so no one will think its a mess when they find me dead. I’m trying to figure out what to od – who to call. I have lots of klonopin but I know that’s an unreliable way to commit suicide. I want to stay in this bar – its full of people who still don’t have power from the storm. Help.
It’s 7:00 PM and we still don’t have electricity. We have been cooking and boiling water on the gas grill. It’s pretty cold – going to get in bed and read by flashlight. I hope we can get out tomorrow! We got about 28″ of snow today. My blackberry only has 20 percent battery left, darn. I’ll definitely return emails tomorrow though.
We’re in the middle of a blizzard. The electricity went out at 1:45am. It’s cold. I have a lot of food but no way to cook it. It’s going to be a long day. I’m doing a 1000 piece puzzle.
So much to say, and yet nothing to say.