We had a very bad snowstorm last night. My usual 20 to 30 minute commute (8.5 miles) took two hours. I had to turn around at one point because so many cars were stuck trying to get up a hill. I had a slight panic episode right then. But I called my boss a couple of times while I was on the way home and he said I could always turn around and come back to his house. Which I am glad I didn’t because he lost power at 7:00PM and it was out for 12 hours. Our power went out briefly in the middle of the night, but by morning it was back on.

Unfortunately my beautiful cherry tree did not fare well. Here is what it looks like in the spring:

Here is what it looks like now:

You might have noticed that my posts lately are not accepting comments. The reason for this is because I have found myself becoming somewhat dependent on the comments, as well as feeling sensitive about them at times. Can you believe that I would wake up sometimes in the middle of the night and check my email on my blackberry to see if anyone has left me a comment? Well, realistically my blog is for myself. To think about my life, my behaviors and my emotions. I love the people I have met through my blog and I would never want to lose them, but I have to take a step back from the comments for a while. I’m sure I’ll open my posts up to comments again very soon.

I’ve also been feeling a little bit down. You know, bad thoughts. I’m not watching the Bourne Identity, but I am watching the Bourne Ultimatum. Which is actually a scary movie – lots of mind games, torture, brainwashing. The Bourne Identity is frightening in that the main character has no idea what is going on, which is scary, but ignorance can be bliss. By the time he gets to the Bourne Ultimatum his memory is coming back, and they are not good things to remember. And I probably should not be watching, but there are probably a lot of things I shouldn’t be doing.