I thought I was really over my fear of flying. I don’t normally have the pre-anxiety that I used to have, but I do get a little nervous when we take off, and I do take either a Xanax or a klonopin, but lots of people do that, right?
But I guess I’m not really recovered from the phobia. My therapist told me a story about a plane getting a big hole in it and how the law of physics prevents people from being sucked out of the hole. Then I had to go home and read everything about this event on the internet and get freaked out.
Luckily it didn’t ruin my vacation. I did think about it quite a bit while I was there, but I was able to enjoy myself. It just pisses me off that one little thing like that can set me back.
I don’t blame you. I cannot get my head around the fact that the plane sits up in the air for over 13 hours from San Francisco to Sydney. Just before we left for our trip my husband had the tv on some show that was all about air disasters. I told him to turn it off as it freaked me out.
I’m triggered by lots of things – not about flying so much. Still scared of heights, no real idea why, just have been ever since I can remember.
Do try not to be so hard on yourself Harriet. I think it’s natural to go through this….finding a way around the fear and then having to readjust again when something tries to push that fear back to the surface. You made it on the plane to come back home! You could have gotten on a bus instead, right?
Give Little Harriet a break. Poor kid! Don’t be like your Mom – have a heart.
Welcome home! Glad you had a good trip.
i am so glad that you were able to enjoy your trip, even with your fears and concerns.
okay, i’m playing a little armchair psychology here — my sense is that the issue may be more about something you’re feeling toward J. and perhaps less about how you feel about flying?
does that resonate at all or am i completely off-base?
Maybe you do have a fear of flying – but you get on a plane…and you do it a lot. So you overcome your fear time and time again. That takes strength! A lot of people cant do that. You could have cancelled your trip after hearing about the convertible plane, right? But you didn’t…
LOL Grace, convertible plane :P
Linda – I can’t believe you flew all the way here from Australia! The farthest I have flown since I “got over” my fear is a five hour flight.
Evan – I’m scared of heights too. That one’s easy, just don’t ever go up anywhere high.
Sanity – A bus? That would have been an ordeal! But you are right.
Laura – thank you!
Melissa – Hmmm, interesting. I’ve been thinking about it and I don’t know what I was feeling towards J. Perhaps a bit of anger for screwing with me two days before I was leaving?
Grace – you are right, I do get on the darn things. I was very close to canceling and I’m so glad I didn’t. I still use your trick – counting from the time the plane starts down the runway until the little ding ding when we are up in the air.