A couple of weird things happened yesterday, but I’ll write about this one. I have a sister who is three years younger than me. All of our lives she was the cute pretty little social one, and I was the ugly big nerdy one. Lately when I’ve been glancing in the mirror at myself (because that is how I look in the mirror, via glances) I see her. And we don’t look anything alike. A major change that has happened to me is that over the last two years my hair has gone from sleek and straight to curly/wavy. My sister always had curly hair. Our hair was always about the same color until a few years ago when she stopped coloring hers, now hers is mostly gray with some blobs of brown. She looks vastly different due to the gray hair, and also much older.
When my friends see photos of her they say, “What happened to your sister?” To me she looks the same, but with grayer hair, but to most people she looks very different.
I have also lost weight during the last couple of years resulting in a thinner face. But I still don’t think we look alike, except when I glance in a mirror and see her.
As I mentioned I’m taking an online photo journalism course and last week our assignment was Reflections. We took photos of ourselves or others reflected in different surfaces. This was an extremely difficult assignment for me, psychologically as well as technically, but I did manage to create a few photos that were decent.
One of the photos I shot in my car. It was a reflection of me in the mirror of my sun visor.
And in this photo I look just like my sister, except with brown hair. I also have sunglasses on, which hides my eyes. My eyes are very different than my sister’s. I sent the photo to my sister with a note, “See why I say I look like you?” She sent me back this email:
“That’s my old me. I miss that look. Wow, you are sooo lucky”
I was stunned when I read this. I felt like crying, I felt so badly for my sister. I never thought that she was affected by her appearance – she was always the cute pretty one! Now I’m the lucky one? How can this be?
I guess when you’re ugly for your whole life you get used to it, but when you start out attractive and you get older and your looks change it is very disturbing.
I told her it’s just the hair color that is different, nothing else about her has changed. In my eyes, anyway. She’s still the pretty one. I just can’t believe that when it comes to looks anyone would think I’m lucky.