I have come up with two theories. The first one explains why I have been having crazy thoughts and why my mind won’t stop thinking and imagining and driving me crazy. I must have a brain tumor. Those are the symptoms of a brain tumor, right?
The second theory explains why I have always put a barrier between me and everyone else. I believe this began when I was young and I realized that I wasn’t like everyone else. I was odd, different, weird. And if people knew that they would, at best, not understand me, and more likely ridicule me. No one likes to be ridiculed, so I just shut down. That was simple.
Oh my goodness…I also have a brain tumor ~ with bone mets ~ which explain all the crazy thoughts and conflicting voices and the bone mets certainly explain the horrible hip/pelvic pain that accompany the flashbacks.
And yes, on the brick wall!
I would like to know you better, Harriet ~ I hope you don’t take this as an insult, but I can see msyelf in your writing….
WIshing you peace and understanding… ~ Gracie
I swear to God, Harriet, we have to be twins.
Harriet
Yeah, I think I shut down too, a long time ago. It’s possible that that explains it in terms of my relationships in adulthood.
As for a brain tumour, I wish I had one… (I know it’s terrible to say that)…
Polar B.
Grace – it’s not an insult at all, quite the opposite. I think you are amazing – as a person, as a writer, just overall. It’s a compliment that you are seeing yourself in my blog.
Laura – I know we are! I’m coming to visit you one day!
CP – It’s not terrible to say that. I’d rather have a brain tumor than be an evil person, even if it means it would kill me.
I have the brain tumor theory as well. I thought for years that I had a brain tumor. Even now I still bring up this theory to my pdoc.
lostinamaze – maybe these brain tumors are contagious, we all have them.